PARANOIA

Here it is again, that foreign, yet familiar feeling.
Foreign, as it is not normally a part of being;
Familiar, as it has plagued masses time & again,
Whenever you get too high.

The constant inner struggle to maintain logic & rationality
Makes no difference here-There's no escaping your mind.
The thoughts & feelings of love and happiness wither
Replaced by fear, uncertainty, and ever pressing doubt.

The world is much different place when youre sucked into
This vaccuous black hole, alone with only your reeling mind.
The lines of reality and existance now blurred.
You will succum to being your own worst enemy.

What was once so clear is now nothing but a grey area.
What was tangible becomes something you can never reach.
The person youre interested in, isnt interested anymore-
So it seems. To you.

No logical reason is needed when your mind takes over.
Time goes on ever so slowly,
Taking you with it.
Maybe this toxic unfounded emotional jacuzzi will go away;
Maybe you'll be normal again after you sleep.
Maybe.. you'll wake up to find you have willed this into your reality.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
A sober better day.