I wish the ladies knew..

I feel sick when I think of everything that will be left behind as a reminder of how interconnected we once were and everywhere we fit together. I feel sick thinking that Im the only one that will be emotionally raped by it all, and afraid to find out my life means nothing and I never made you feel the way youve made me feel. Dealing with feelings of non existance and rejection, sadness, so many things, really, and Ill be doing it alone, knowing you are distracted somewhere else, and Im never to be mentioned or thought of again. Ouch. Youll see just how high you lifted me, when you watch me fall so far.

Life Restrained

Her luck always tripped her, Death seeking her out on every adventure, every break from caution. Doomed to live a safe life, never truely doing the things she wanted.