One breath was all it took...

My body is exhausted and weary from the constant exertion of living days at a time. My eyes are slightly focused, wide open, even though I am edging on delirium due to sleep deprivation. Lately it seems the world is moving so fast, I don't dare blink or sleep, feared to miss a beat, miss something. Yet, I decide to give in, against my desire to finish things undone, and at least lay down and relax my bones. As I lay on my back, I feel the spaces opening up between my bones, my muscles numb from the permission I granted to stop moving. Almost felt like I wasn't really there, then again, when don't I, in some way? I gathered one last morsel of strength, to turn over, to lay on my stomach, including a big exhale that was wonderful feeling. Oxygen. It's good for you. On my next inhale, I was caught off guard.  I was immediately transported to the same place, different time. There I was, and there you were, next to me, looking in my eyes with the utmost love and adoration. Funny how scents trigger reactions like that. Traces of you are all over my sheets, my pillows, my thoughts, even my bathroom mirrors. You had succeeded in encompassing me. You were all around me, and being surrounded, never felt so good. Swept away in the world of Us, the reality in my mind, albeit still sleep deprived, had suddenly jolted me out of exhaustion, and awakened my senses. I no longer felt I needed to sleep. I did not want to sleep. There, in the theatre of my mind, I wanted to stay, with you. I can sleep when I'm dead, and with only your scent, you brought me to life again, and made me feel more alive than I have since the last time we were in 3D. It's been said that if you clearly state what you want to yourself, and focus all good energies into that thought, you can project that into fruition. Kinda like, if you build it, they will come. It's a lot more difficult to do than most people would think, and everyone slips occasionally, myself included. But as I lay there, lost in you, there was nothing to project, because I had it all. Wouldn't you know, like most everything in life, like my projects that had yet to be completed, this fairytale of a journey I was taking in my minds eye, also was left uncompleted. Everything goes in cycles, and despite my sheer will and determination to stay in that place, with you, my body and mind betrayed me, and succumbed to the rem cycle. Of sleep. I fell asleep in a place I wanted to be, so you could say I fell asleep happy and at peace, taking you with me with every inhale. Sure, I did wake up alone, without you, but any time I want to be with you, I know, for now at least, until we are in 3D again, all I have to do is lay down and close my eyes, because of all the places I've ever been, none compare to the places I go when I close my eyes, and think of you.